The end of this year

Has brought so many mixed feelings. The past few weeks have been a low point, mainly based on my own insecurities about my friends and my future but now everything seems to be coming into shape. Living arrangements are looking pretty much sorted, we're planning a pukka NYE party at my house and in the new year I'm planning on joining a student society and, shock horror, the gym.
I've been feeling like everyone has a set friendship group that they go out with without fail every weekend and it's been making me feel pretty lonely because I'm one of those people that craves social security and I haven't felt like I've had any since summer really. My friends are all spaced out. I've got my flatmates who are amazing and who I often go to the su or The Pint Pot with, and I DO spent most nights with these people, Becky who I spend literally 24 hours a day with talking and eating and watching tv, Becky's friends who I go to the gay village with, I'm getting to know more people on my course as the weeks go on and I've got all the friends that I had before uni such as Connor who is my neighbour and who I see all the time, Heather who I try and meet as often as I can, Claudia who I love to pieces and Paige who I see everytime she comes back from Leeds for the weekend. Then there's other people who I don't see as much as I'd like, such as Jake who I've only managed to see about 3 times since being at uni, Lund who moved to Blackpool and who I haven't seen since Freshers week and won't see until new year :( and Ieuan who works every single weekend these days.
It's only when I type it all out like that though, that I realise that I do have loads of mates. I've got about 5 close girl mates, loads of boy mates and millions of people who I can have nights out with. Since being at uni I've met Becky who had become one of my best friends in the space of a few weeks, I tell her everything and we are so similar in so many ways it's almost creepy.
Last night we had our house Christmas meal and it was so lovely! We all exchanged our Secret Santa presents which were SO THOUGHTFUL. Jess got me a sequinned picture frame with a picture of Ed Sheeran inside (because I went to see him live last week) and everyone got each other gifts that were personal to that person. Elliot and Patrick cooked us a beautiful dinner and served it like proper chefs, we pulled crackers and wore Christmas hats and then went to the su in our suits and long dresses. When we got back, I sat up playing cards with Sam and Matt for ages, then ended up talking to Matt till about 5am, before waking up today to a day full of films, it was BEAUTIFUL.
I got in Becky's bed with her, Pat and Matt and we watched House of Wax, then I got a mince pie and had a chat with the boys in the kitchen before watching A Clockwork Orange with Alex and Patrick and my duvet. It was such a beautiful 24 hours, we've felt like such a family and it's been lovely.

I can't wait for next year when I can get so much closer to these people and carry on meeting new people through societies and friends of friends etc. :)