so so urggghrgh74gdfjb8xgdds5 all i need is a new years eve party, this year has been so hard, literally lost everything that ever meant anything to me and been way up then at rock bottom over and over and now all the dark thoughts are coming back and all i need is one party to show me that it wasnt all in vain and i have made new friends to replace old ones and i am settled at uni but oh no, i invite everyone i know, most of whom wont give me a definite answer and nobody else even bothers to invite anybody.
this is so important to me :( :(dont know what m y heads gonna be like if this doesnt happen, thought all these feelings were gone but this has been such a huge trigger that no one seems arsed about
i wish i could talk to someone, really talk but whenever people try n ask i just laugh and brush it off or become all detached, dunno how much longer i can stay this strong for, its getting harder.
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