Is lust really a deadly sin?

For over a year now, I have been waiting for love to find me, trying to create a fairytale, trying to forge a love story out of a month-long affair. But last night, while reflecting on my past relationships, I realised that I don't want to fall in love and I never have. Yes, I have wanted someone to call my own but I asked myself, if my best friends weren't settled down, would I want to be? And the answer is no. I am scared to be tied down, told who I can and can't see, what I can and can't do. I don't need another half because I am a whole person and I don't need the closeness that a relationship brings because I have everybody that I need around me. So many boys are beautiful and I can't choose just one of them. I can't stop flirting just yet. I want everybody I see, if only for a week, if only for a day, if only for a fleeting glance! I don't care how how short a time period, I want everybody, not just somebody.
I will give him until Tuesday to call.