Sick

of it, im ltierally so fucking sick of everything, im sick of having to cover things up because of society's idea of what is acceptable to tell people and what is not, sick of lying about myself to avoid being stigmatised and labelled as a freak, sick of putting more effort into living a normal life than anybody i know yet still not managing to, sick of doing things i dont mean to do and having to live with the consequences, sick of the nhs, sick of everybody saying its hard to deal with me well its hard to live inside this head 24/7 but it has to be done so theres no point moaning theres only a point in change. im sick of asking people how they are and having to listen to them whine on about insignificant little things that they think are so important but not actually doing anything to solve their problems, sick of people constantly asking how i am and accusing me of lying whatever the answer is, sick of the fact that people thing you're a whiney little emo if you choose not to go out and get wasted one night because you dont always feel up to it, fucking sick sick sick of people writhing around feeling sorry for themselves when theres nothing wrong with their environment or their heads.
everytime weve learnt about a mental disorder in psychology, some idiots said something along the lines of "hahhaha tenner bet no one has that" as if you can tell what someones going through by looking at their fake smiles and choosing to believe them because you only see what you want to see and not whats actually happening
i swear one day im going to snap and a lot of people are gonna find out some things they really didnt wanna know cbaa