everyone

fucks you over eventually, everyone. you proper think you know someone and they prove you wrong, you spend years putting your back out doing everything, caring about them more than you care about yourself, it doesnt matter because something someday will fuck it all up, money, a boy, it doesnt have to be anything specific but something will because everyone fucks you over in the end. i feel like i have a hole in my chest i am so  upset, never thought this would happen and i know its definitely not gonna be sorted anytime soon, hoping it will eventually but you really never do know, im numb and i fucking need a hug and someone to tell me its gonna be ok and actually be right :(