Now, although I read these books last summer in Italy, they didn't stick with me. It was very much a case of, I believed the words on the pages as I read them, but as soon as I put the book down I'd find things to worry about. I'm definitely not what you would call a naturally positive person and I give "seeing the glass half empty" a whole new meaning and it frustrates me so much. My best friend and flatmate Rebecca is exactly the same but to an even bigger extreme. She'll worry about tiny things that even I wouldn't worry about, and what frustrates her even more is that she knows full well that she has a good life and nothing to worry about. I won't get too specific because I don't want to offend the person in question but I was with Becky once and we were both stressing out about something that really didn't need to be worried about when one of our friends came over to us and was enthusing about something that me and Bec would never get excited over in a million years. This person has so much less in their lives than we do, and yet they always have a smile on their face. It made us both so ashamed of the way we look at things because really, I can't think of anybody that I'd trade lives with or even any way in which my own life could be improved.
I really have so much to be thankful for and the majority of the time I don't even realise so I'm just going to take a moment to acknowledge the things that I am so lucky to have.
I love the fact that I am so close to my mum. I love that I have an AMAZING network of friends. I have about ten close friends that help me out when I'm in trouble and cheer me up when I'm down, as well as loads of people to go out and have fun with in pubs and clubs. I don't actually know anybody else with so many close friends, and I know for a fact that mine have my back because of recent events in the past three weeks. I also am studying for a degree that I find absolutely fascinating and lets me feed my creative side but also gives me the academic knowledge I need in order to hold a decent debate or write a decent article. I have TWO homes that are relatively close to one another, meaning I can stay in Salford and party with my friends or go home for some home cooking and movie nights with my mum, I have money in the bank that is enough to cover my rent for the entire summer, pay for a few new tattoos and fund my travelling when I finish uni, I go on at least two nights out with my friends every week, I have hundreds of books and more than enough clothes, I'm happy in my own skin, I have a God that listens to me stress out almost every single night and still provides me with everything I could want and more, between Becky, Connor and Josh I ALWAYS have people around in Salford I can spend time with watching TV and ordering pizza and I'm moving into an absolutely beautiful town house on the 2nd of July that I never in my wildest dreams imagined I'd ever be living in. I'll be living with my best friend and the boys I live with now and we not only have a living room this year but a party room with a pool table, a garden and my own room has huge bay windows and is beautifully decorated. I have a good life :)
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